TGIF

My first week is finally over. It wasn't perfect, but I had unreasonable expectations. I was hoping everyone at work would like me immediately, be impressed so they can tell boss man, and then everyone will realize that the office can't run without me and I will have a job forever. That didn't happen.

Boss man told people to send him projects so he can review before passing it along, so I waited. Then, he calls me in, has no work for me and tells me (in a nice way) that I can be proactive and ask people for stuff. If I had known that it was okay, I would have done that ages ago!

I am also really affected by this billable hours business. First of all, I have no idea how to use the online program for billing and no one has time to teach me. I don't know what kind of work is billable and what isn't. What about the 20 mins I talk to boss man? Or check my e-mail? Apparently everything has to be recorded. Today, I finally learned the program and spent an hour logging everything from the week. Then I had to log the amount of time I spent logging... 

After logging my hours, I left the office feeling disappointed in my performance this week. I didn't realize how little my week was billable. It is kind of upsetting to see that out of 10 hours I work, only half was billable, the rest unbillable or unaccounted for. And holy crap I am such a slow worker. I spent 7 hours translating a few pages of DD. Granted, it was all technical legalese on stocks options but still! It's so embarrassing to log and I feel like I have so little to show for my day. I see why law firms do things this way now. It's a self-inflicted cycle of guilt, pressure and overtime.

I know I am crazy to expect everything to go perfectly from the get go. I have to keep reminding myself to be okay with the downs of this transition. New focus: get it together this weekend, do some fun things and recharge. Imma rock that bitch next week. YEAH.